Mind full or Mindful?

Knock, Knock!

Who’s there?

Mind.

Mind who?

Your mind who’s full of worries –

worries about children and the environment, work and it’s culture, body and the skin, skills and the wins, finances and debts, sleep schedule and stock bets, 401k and 529, taxes and other fines, worried about meditation and mental condition, bmi and protein consumption, growing the garden, fixing the holes, a painting project and plan a party that blows!

college for kids while building their other skills – tennis and swimming, self defense and bullying, drugs and alcohol, but oh, that summer camp and boys scout.

I’m the mind who’s constantly planning for your next minute, next hour, next day, next month, next year, next generation, next fomo, next vacation.

But I’m too full because I now plan in my dreams if I am ever able to sleep!!

Free me my lord, for life ought to be effortless! Meant to be in the present! Meant to be funny and shiny from the sweat of the labor, tasty because I can feel all the flavor! I can be capable of self healing, capable of compassion; capable of laughing and crying, capable of standing by myself without pity;

if only I can be mindful of now; if only I can dance a few steps and write my own song; if only I didn’t drown my sorrows in sugar, amazon and Netflix but held my partner’s hand and walked through the fix!

..and that starts NOW! I do what I love, I am present for a family conversation, I am dreaming crazy about my future and building an inch of that crazy EVERY DAY. For my life is bigger than the checklist and dreams get clearer with every inch I build. I breathe free air and I LOVE for free.. for these are the best things in the world that matter to me – today, tomorrow and the day I die.